Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Katrina 2.0


Katrina 2.0 




W
e were told a big storm was coming. Prepare, prepare, prepare! 




Jimmy and I stocked up on our nonperishables, checked our supplies of candles and batteries, put extra water in the fridge, and battened down our proverbial hatches. I figured it would be similar to last year’s Hurricane Irene—some disruptions in services and a couple of days off from work. I worried about two things: the trees in Forest Park, because we live in the park, and our fax and phone service, which had gone out during Irene.

 • • •
OY! Superstorm Sandy was Irene on steroids.
Ironically or “irenically,” in our area, things were not bad. We had a disruption of our internet for about a half day. We looked out of our office window and watched the leaves dance on the trees. Back and forth, back and forth, the cascading waves of yellow, green, and brown almost seemed like a moving Monet. Jimmy wrote a poetic essay and I captured some of the movement with my camera. We enjoyed a lunch of devilled eggs.
The next day, the stores were open, so Jimmy prepared chicken salad sandwiches with pickles, and the creative task for the day was to venture outside for a photo shoot. Jimmy rolled me in my wheelchair up a half a block on Park Lane South. I snapped away—an upturned garbage can; crews clearing away downed trees; bent “No Parking” signs; twigs, branches, and leaves strewn in the street and on the park benches; an abandoned, broken umbrella; and even a small group of toadstools were my subjects.
After we got back upstairs, I created a slideshow and a Facebook Album to share my photographs. I called it the Sandy Dancer’s Ball (a takeoff on an old, old song called "The Gandy Dancer’s Ball"), figuring the pictures would provide some esthetic amusement now that the storm had passed.
But looking at Channel 2—and seeing the flooding, the fires, and the hospitals being evacuated—gave me an uneasy feeling. The crawler at the bottom of the screen indicated that Jimmy was in for an enforced “staycation” of at least the remainder of the week—no public transit and no electricity at his workplace made us realize that our plans for a vacation in New Orleans would again have to be cancelled. A worm of worry started to intrude—how much overtime would be lost now?
Then on my Facebook page, suddenly, the devastation of the storm became personal. No more was it, “wow, this looks like Venice” or “that flood looks like a dam” or “thank G-d we don’t live on Breezy Point.” Now members of our own extended family faced large-scale destruction of their home—a home that they had put so much loving care into—remodeling it and redesigning it to their heart’s desire. 
Now I felt ashamed. This was no Sandy Dancer’s Ball—it was something far more sinister. It meant tears and fears realized and writ large. It meant a sense of homelessness for people we love. Yes, they have a place to stay with other loving relatives, but, it’s not home!
How can we help? What can we do? What can we give these people to show that we care? Oh my G-d, surely prayers cannot be enough!
I renamed my album Katrina 2.0.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Only the Shadow Knew


Only the Shadow Knew

  It was a dark and stormy night…just like it always in in every scary story—except that in this case, Hurricane Sandy was barreling its way up the East Coast. Andrea was alone, shivering and jittery. A blue-gray shadow seemed to follow her everywhere she went. Even the comforting glow of her desk lamp failed to chase it away. Yet, when she drew closer to examine what it was—was it the cat? Was it her OWN shadow?—the shadow faded.

   Suddenly the lights failed, and Andrea stood alone in the obsidian blackness of her room. She ran to the window to see if any lights were on in the street. Alas, the engulfing darkness extended outward as far as she could see.

   Andrea’s heart began to pound. With shaking fingers she felt for the glass with a candle that she had left on her night-table for just such an event. Ah, her hand touched the edge of the glass. Suddenly, it moved in a jerking motion away from her groping fingers. With a crash, it landed on the floor—the glass holder shattering all around her feet.

   Now she stood paralyzed with fear! One step could lead to a sliver cutting the bottom of her feet, and it was not like she could get to the bathroom to put a cloth on such a cut. It was not like she could even see to remove it. She would have had to live with the pain.

   A light appeared; involuntarily, Andrea jerked toward it and stepped on a large piece of glass. But when she turned to see the shadow, it was misty, blue-gray, and fading. It was just like all the other times of late—the ambiguous form following her every move. It always happened at night, so she had been sleeping with the light on.

   Now, cold, chilly, shivering, bleeding, and lightless, she faced the shadow—determined to stare it down despite the intense gulf she felt in her solar plexus.

   “Who are you? What do you want?” she shouted.

   Nothing but silence—a silence that even masked the roaring wind outside her window. The form floated toward the window and moved slowly through the glass panes. Then it flattened itself against the outside of the window. It transformed into another mist, and then a grimace, distorted, with black elongated eyes and a mouth drawn up in a rictus of pain. Andrea felt her knees buckle. Then she lost all sensation below her waist and fell to the floor. She then fell into a darkness that was even deeper. Her body floated and bobbed. Nausea gripped her belly. . . .

   Then her eyes opened. She was lying in her bed. The light was on. The candle and its holder lay intact upon her night-table. Her head was face down and her reflection glared at her on her makeup mirror, which lay between her and her pillow.

   But the shadow remained, just at the very edge of her vision.